Got an ephipany. I can write something. Recently, I’ve been thinking on why am I suddenly crossing into social and economic/marketing side of the internet. Coming from technical background, the root of why Social is interesting would have been the mashup part. An the economic and marketing stuff may come up because I want to build something on my own feet. It’s a necessity to validates myself and thoughts. Yet, I cannot still believe how far away I am from what I had been before migrating to Jakarta.
I don’t write nor play with much code anymore. New libraries and frameworks are just news and not for touching. I left OSNews and Slashdot, read more on RWW and friends. Why? It doesn’t mean that I don’t love Javascript or PHP anymore. PHP is my bread and butter, literally.
I suspect it’s time management that has casted me on this stranger land. A world where I must crawl again to carve my existence. I feel very “bloon” in this side of the cyber. The one hour to go to office and another hour to go home left me with no energy but to read. And reading is what I’ve been doing. No code involved so mind twisting and logic bending is the new toy.
Maybe it will get me somewhere. But I’m quite afraid that I’ll end up having no speciality as I’ve come late in the race. Everyone is running and I am still looking for my shoe.
Is this really the world I want to be? Is this the world I meant to be?
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